What if.....

Do not take this post the wrong way.....I wouldn't trade CJ and Kai for the world!

However, in saying that I often wonder what it would've been like to be pregnant (I don't wonder or "dream" of the delivery part)! :-)

I often wonder if we had children of our own who they would've looked like? Would they have been a mommy suck like Kai? Would they make me laugh with the things they say like CJ? Would they have been outgoing? Would they love to talk like daddy? Would I worry as much about them in different situations like CJ and Kai? Would we have had more than one?

I have often said to Greg that if we had been able to have our own children we would have never had CJ and Kai. And quite frankly as much as some days they make me want to pull my hair out (in a good way), I wouldn't have it any other way! :-)

CJ's smile and sense of humour! The way Kai smiles with his whole face and when you get him laughing, his from the belly laugh is contagious! CJ is so helpful and always wants to please....he loves it when you make a big deal about being proud of something he's just done! Kai loves to make you laugh, he thinks everything is fun and games! The way CJ takes poppy by the hand, or touches his head and says, "I love you poppy!" The way Kai can spot a motorcycle or a tractor miles away!

I would NEVER trade it, but sometimes just wonder....what if?